Afleveringen
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Before disappearing for summer, I wanted to leave you with one final thought: I think I'm tired of my own narrative.
In this episode, we're talking about sobriety, growing pains, outgrowing old versions of ourselves, and why I think I've reached the point where I need fewer revelations and more experiences.
Thank you for spending this season with me.
See you after summer.
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I met someone in LA and immediately found myself doing what so many of us do: trying to prove I was worth getting to know.
In this episode, we're talking about validation, attention, self-worth, and why one person's indifference can sometimes outweigh the appreciation of hundreds of others.
Because the question isn't why they didn't see us.
The question is why we keep letting strangers decide whether we're worth seeing.
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Zijn er afleveringen die ontbreken?
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a little life update from california.
in this episode, i share a realization i've been having about how my first relationship - and the abuse that existed within it - may have shaped my relationship to intimacy in ways i didn't fully understand until now.
we also talk about procrastination, routine, perspective shifts, and a few things that have been making more sense lately.
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This episode starts with me attending a physiognomy class and somehow ends with me unpacking wanting to feel understood.
We talk about the loneliness of being hyper-observant, the difference between attention and recognition, and why so many women feel deeply unseen despite constantly being looked at.
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The girl that used to willingly make very self-destructive choices still lives in me. Nowadays the craziest things I do are nothing compared to who I used to be⊠but she still lives in me.
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I get into:
hypervigilance and constantly reading between the linesfeeling like you have to âsolveâ every interactioninternalized shame and always assuming youâre the problemand how these patterns might come from the environments we grew up inThis episode is about what happens when awareness turns into self-blame and why everything can start to feel personal, even when itâs not.
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Itâs interesting how loud people get when it comes to correcting misinformation but where is that same energy when the information is actually correct? An episode about how statistics can become a convenient escape and how the focus shifts from the point to the detail.
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Apparently Iâm pro-cheating now. All because I said that cheating once doesnât make you a horrible person forever and people did not like that. So letâs unpack it. What even is cheating? Why does it trigger us so deeply? Why do we need it to mean something so clear? And why are we so uncomfortable with the idea that people are more than their worst moment?
This isnât about defending cheating. Itâs about understanding people without losing your boundaries.
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In this episode, I talk about the fear of being seen, why weâre so scared of being cringe, and how itâs affecting the way we connect with each other.
From moral superiority online to constantly judging each other, to feeling like everything is âtoo muchâ or âtoo weirdâ - it feels like weâve created a culture where itâs safer to perform than to be real.
(and in the spirit of all that: my debut single Starving Heart is out now đ€)
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I quit drinking and thought everything would get better. Instead, I realized alcohol was never the problem - it was depression.
In this episode, I talk about what depression has looked like for me, what sobriety actually reveals, and why Iâm questioning whether I want love⊠or just someone to fix how I feel.
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I went down a rabbit hole of research on why humans kiss and what might actually be happening in that moment - from biological signals our bodies pick up subconsciously to the complicated dance between chemistry and compatibility.
Because sometimes your body knows something your brain hasnât figured out yet.
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This conversation is rooted in my perspective as someone who was lucky enough to be born and live in a country where women have basic rights. But there are millions of women around the world who still donât.
If youâd like to support organizations working to change that:
Malala Fund â https://malala.org
Equality Now â https://www.equalitynow.org
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A reflective episode about sobriety, escapism, and the slow journey towards self-love. I share my experience quitting weed after eight years, my relationship with alcohol, and how my understanding of discipline and self-respect has evolved over the past two and a half years.
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This is a conversation about how, during sex, women often perform pleasure, comfort, and emotional regulation, while men perform control, composure, and stamina - roles shaped by culture, language, and expectation.
We talk about performance vs presence, the aggressive language we use to describe sex, emotional labor during intimacy, and the feeling of being an experience instead of sharing one.
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I didnât stay because I was stupid. I stayed because the pain and relief cycle is addictive. A raw conversation about abuse, self-abandonment, and choosing someone else over yourself again and again.
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I feel rejected all the time. Not just when the guy i caught feelings for ends things. Also when someone texts me with a dry tone. Or doesnât reply. And it feels embarrassing to have such big feelings about such small things. So letâs unpack rejection.
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As women, weâre constantly monitoring ourselves: on dates, in relationships, and in bed. This episode explores self-surveillance in dating and sex, why transactional intimacy can feel safer than romance, and why even with safe, respectful partners, being fully present can still feel impossible.
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A deeply personal and cultural deep dive into why women are taught to believe they love too much and why that was never true. From heartbreak and sensitivity to situationships, ghosting, and emotional detachment, this episode is about reclaiming your heart, trusting your instincts, and remembering that you were never broken. You were just loving in a world that taught men to love too little.
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Letâs talk about kinks. About desire and shame. About power, safety, and what it means to feel truly seen by someone. In this episode, I share what Iâm learning about wanting, boundaries, trust, and intimacy and why desire is never as random as we think.
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âFuck her till she falls in loveâ is a phrase that gets thrown around casually as a joke, a warning, or a dismissal.
This episode takes that cliché apart.
Instead of framing womenâs attachment after intimacy as weakness or lack of control, we look at whatâs actually happening beneath the surface: nervous system responses, cultural conditioning, and the power dynamics that shape how closeness is experienced and judged.
If youâve ever been told you âcaught feelingsâ as if it were a personal failure, this conversation offers language, context, and relief instead of shame.
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